I’m 36,000 feet up in the air but never have I felt so grounded and secure. I find myself with the whole exit row aisle to myself on a flight back to Hong Kong, a place I’ve made home for the past nine years. I am struck by awe at how much things have changed, while not changing at all at an external glance.
Just 18 days ago I was on the same airline, making the voyage to Bali. I remember feeling nervous and my mind racked with doubt, wondering if it was too late to back-out on my plans of doing an intense yoga teacher training (200 hours in 16 days). Second-guessing myself if I was capable and/or ready for the program, and scared of being put out of my comfort zone. I now find myself on the same flight on the same airline, but this time on the journey home, confident and my mind put at ease. The future is still unknown to me, yet I feel collected as I fly back knowing my intention and understanding that the universe will somehow provide. I have completed the program. I am a Registered Yoga Teacher of 200 hours as well as a certified Reiki I & II practitioner. I understand my mission is to be a healer. I long to connect and inspire those who find me with my experience and journey through yoga practice. Whatever happens, happens. As long as I know that I leave a healthy, happy and positive impact on those who come along my path, I am at peace.
It’s wild to look back and see how much has changed. I flew to the Yandara Yoga course in Bali with a feeling of emptiness and an abyss of uncertainty in me. One that has been residing ever since my world was turned upside down with the sudden loss of my father when I was eleven… and even more so after ending an engagement a mere few months ago. However, I return with a feeling of purpose and a lightness to my step. I have finally begun to let go of my attachment to the past. The nagging feeling that I am nothing of the woman I would have been if my father was still around. I have let go. I am exactly where I am supposed to be, and all of the external factors that have brought me here were meant to happen; the good, the bad and the ugly.
I have learned so much in Bali and I am still processing it all… but there is no doubt in my heart that I am finally on the right track. On the cusp of my 27th birthday I have finally found the path that my heart has been waiting for me to recognize, and that the world has been shaping me to take. My mission is to document my journey of self-discovery through the practice and teaching of yoga with you, whoever you are, reading this. My dream is that you will be inspired and will share with me, with all of us, your own journey. That we may continue to inspire one another to shape ourselves into a better state of being. We are a community in a generation with modern technology that allows us to connect at the mere tap-tap of our fingertips if we wish to. My aspiration is that you will help me, help you, help us to become a better community. One that recognizes that all of us have the ability to both give love and are worthy to receive love, and are all capable of making a positive impact. I hope to make the world a better place, something that since I was a child I always relished and am finally taking on. I hope you stay for the journey.
Samantha AKA The Haute Yogi