Author: thehauteyogi

Homeward Bound

Homeward Bound

I’m 36,000 feet up in the air but never have I felt so grounded and secure. I find myself with the whole exit row aisle to myself on a flight back to Hong Kong, a place I’ve made home for the past nine years. I am struck by awe at how much things have changed, while not changing at all at an external glance.

Just 18 days ago I was on the same airline, making the voyage to Bali. I remember feeling nervous and my mind racked with doubt, wondering if it was too late to back-out on my plans of doing an intense yoga teacher training (200 hours in 16 days). Second-guessing myself if I was capable and/or ready for the program, and scared of being put out of my comfort zone. I now find myself on the same flight on the same airline, but this time on the journey home, confident and my mind put at ease. The future is still unknown to me, yet I feel collected as I fly back knowing my intention and understanding that the universe will somehow provide. I have completed the program. I am a Registered Yoga Teacher of 200 hours as well as a certified Reiki I & II practitioner. I understand my mission is to be a healer. I long to connect and inspire those who find me with my experience and journey through yoga practice. Whatever happens, happens. As long as I know that I leave a healthy, happy and positive impact on those who come along my path, I am at peace.

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It’s wild to look back and see how much has changed. I flew to the Yandara Yoga course in Bali with a feeling of emptiness and an abyss of uncertainty in me. One that has been residing ever since my world was turned upside down with the sudden loss of my father when I was eleven… and even more so after ending an engagement a mere few months ago. However, I return with a feeling of purpose and a lightness to my step. I have finally begun to let go of my attachment to the past. The nagging feeling that I am nothing of the woman I would have been if my father was still around. I have let go. I am exactly where I am supposed to be, and all of the external factors that have brought me here were meant to happen; the good, the bad and the ugly.

I have learned so much in Bali and I am still processing it all… but there is no doubt in my heart that I am finally on the right track. On the cusp of my 27th birthday I have finally found the path that my heart has been waiting for me to recognize, and that the world has been shaping me to take. My mission is to document my journey of self-discovery through the practice and teaching of yoga with you, whoever you are, reading this. My dream is that you will be inspired and will share with me, with all of us, your own journey. That we may continue to inspire one another to shape ourselves into a better state of being. We are a community in a generation with modern technology that allows us to connect at the mere tap-tap of our fingertips if we wish to. My aspiration is that you will help me, help you, help us to become a better community. One that recognizes that all of us have the ability to both give love and are worthy to receive love, and are all capable of making a positive impact. I hope to make the world a better place, something that since I was a child I always relished and am finally taking on. I hope you stay for the journey.

Namaste,
Samantha AKA The Haute Yogi

Welcome to the Haute Yogi!

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“If you are not willing to learn, no one can help you. If you are determined to learn, no one can stop you.”
– Zig Ziglar

Welcome to the Haute Yogi! My name is Samantha and I am a Chinese-American model, insurance agent and aspiring yoga instructor. This blog is dedicated to my journey of self-discovery through yoga practice. Yoga has been an on-again-off-again love affair of mine for about three years. It all began during my senior year in high school when I needed an escape from the stresses of studying for my IB exams in Shanghai. I found yoga to be the perfect practice to quiet the chaotic noise of the external world and to be able to come back to myself and reflect internally. Every class left me with a quiet sense of serenity and a rejuvenated soul and seemed to fill the empty hole I have felt within me ever since my father passed away unexpectedly when I was 11.

When I moved to Hong Kong for university, I stopped practicing as I got swept up into the changes of living alone and attending classes, you know, doing the the normal college kid scene, gaining that freshmen 15 and spending most of my nights out, partying the night away until sunrise. It was only until after I graduated with my Bachelors that I began practicing a few times a week again at age 22. This time, I wasn’t escaping the stresses of exams but the uncertainty of life; and that feeling of misplacement from being a student all one’s life to suddenly, supposedly an adult. Again, I found solace going to classes and emptying my mind of life’s nuances and uncertainties.

This year, I finally joined a yoga studio to focus on bettering my practice and to find peace. A few months ago I ended my engagement which left my mind at a disarray. It was then that I knew it was time to focus on myself to discover what it is exactly that I want in life, and what I will be able to contribute back to the community. As I have always loved practicing yoga since my first class at 17, I signed up to get my RYT 200 at Yandara Yoga Institute, commencing this July 17th. I am excited to begin the journey that I have been putting off for years now, and want to share it with you, whoever is reading this. I hope you walk beside me in this journey. In the words of E. L. Doctorow, “How do you know what you know until you’ve written it? Writing is knowing.” My aim is to know more by journaling my journey, from gaining my RYT 200 to trying out different yoga studios and asanas.

I hope you enjoy the ride and that you share your own stories and journey of self-discovery here as well!

Namaste,
Samantha